14/11/2025
It is Friday. Monday is midterms.
Midterms is one of those occasions where I am used to presenting a projection of th final outcome of this project, which I believe does not really align with my goal of staying open to all eventualities and trusting the process. So once more I want to present the process as is. And give an outline to my journey so far.

I want to show the video I edited. And the artifacts used - perhaps with a little info on them, what they mean etc.
I want to also bring bread sculptures. Maybe to eat?
I had this idea of doing a matroska bread sculpture - different shapes or animals from bread envelloped in each other, tearing them open layer by layer.

I was also thinking about the performance aspect - do i want to perform rather than present? Will I wear my preliminary fool’s costume?

There is multiple aspects to this project:
- Bread as sculpture
- Bread as performance (with others)
- Live performance (as the fool)
- Puppet theatre (as the fool, with bread puppets)
- Video work (filming performance, animation,...)

I wanted to recreate the image of myself sitting in the sink of the industrial kitchen, because there is this story of how I would always bite throught the swim bladders of the carp my dad was preparing. I remembered the image very clearly I think due to the fact that there was picture evidence.
So I went ahead and made the bread carp and sat in the sink in my fool’s costume and then found out that the photo I was picturing was actually of my brother, not me.
Another foolish moment.

People are obsessed with the bread tryouts. They really hit a kind of vein of interest I think. And its also a part of the process I am having a lot of fun with.

How does it all connect to my theory and message?


Open questions/ Future plans:

More bread objects
Livestreaming

This video is somehow didactic - should the method/process be actively talked about within a final version of this? Or should it stay in-narration. (removing the meta-narrative?)
Digital aesthetic as a part of it - mention and show it more? As a free space for expression even within rural conditions.

More personal lowfi narration.

- saying the performance is pretentious may be a way to distance myself from critique or the “shame” of it more than anything else. -> keep working with performance.

Where did my grandmother’s house go?

Butterfly - rat - carp